August 18th, 2008

Dont you ever have days where you just feel like no one cares and that everybody is to busy doing other stuff to notice how much pain you are in? yeah well today that was my day. So it was the first day of high school. and it pretty much sucked. my teachers seemed nice but the kids are horrible. they are so mean and so imature. all they care about is there looks and there boyfriends and girlfriends. i miss midle school. everyone got along and we all cared for eachother so much, it took three years to build that bond with people, and now i have to do it with new people? i dont want too. I love my friends, and how they understand me even if i dont talk. they know when im sad, happy or anything without me even saying a word. I miss that feeling. i dont like the feeling of looking around the room and having no ones face to talk too... or holding someones hand on the bus.. or just having someone to talk to one that bus... i had so many friends, and they are gone, only some stayed... but its okay. i'll surround myself with people i love... again. if i ever find people as amazing as the people in Lehigh Midlle <3


Second thing, my mom is a bitch! she hit me in the face today! For the stupidest reason too! because i didnt put my shoes on... so she hit me in the face. i felt like punching her right then and there... fucking cunt... but you know what, its okay. shes a slut, a soiciopath(bad spelling), phyco, and she needs some more medication. go back to vista. -.- you should have stayed there. crazy bitch. Go away. So yeah. we went to walmart after she hit me. and i went in the bathroom and cried... yeah..


Third thing, Haleigh didnt call. when i need her most and when i start thinking that you arent going to be my best friend,you start not calling me... its fine. whatever.


Fourth, stupid damn hurricane, its not even gonna be that bed and everyone is freaking out! stupid. we've had much worst. atleast they cancelled school so i dont have to go to that hell hole again. the highlight of my day was getting candy in first period :D thanks mrs. monyhan! ahe seems like the only teacher i'll be able to talk to this year... AHHH!!! I HATE THAT PLACE!! SOMEONE GET ME OUUTT!! >:0